There is an unseen Power in this universe that is so much greater then we can think or imagine. Do you ever just sit and wonder how we’re here? These little tiny human beings on this enormous planet in this expansive universe?
It really does blow my mind sometimes. But this Power, which I call God, is alive and so very real. This relationship with Life – with the Cosmos – is overlooked by so many.This Mighty God seeks to live through us expressing Himself (and Herself. God is a spirit, masculine and feminine) through us. We are like waves upon waves and God is like the ocean and we are swimming in this pool of Great Grace! We’re human, but we are also Divine!
We are all divinely connected
We are spiritual in nature. We have a fleshly body, but we are essentially spirits. Each of us is unique, but we are all connected to each other and God. We are all little beams of light connected with the SUN/SON. This expansive energy, this explosive energy is real! (Though many are completely unaware)
But it’s real, ya’ll. Whether you want to call it God or Universe or Life Source or Energy – whatever that higher power is to you – it’s real. I resonate with several different paths and what works for me may not work for you and I’m totally fine with that. You find what works for you. Use the language that works for you and don’t judge others for their path.
The ways of Jesus
I find the teachings of Jesus Christ to be simple. He did not come to make things challenging to understand. Sure, he uses metaphors and parables, but it doesn’t take a genius to recognize that at the very root of all of his teachings is love and compassion for self, others, and God. All it takes is a willingness to humbly go within and seek that which is already seeking you. That which is already a part of you.
My spiritual journey has taken me on some winding roads and I’ve come to forks in the road and have veered off into different practices, religions, or philosophies. I was designed to experience it all! All of it has brought me to a place in life where I’m understanding the bigger picture better. The reality that the more I know, the less I understand, and the less I understand in and of myself, the more I understand in and of Spirit. The more I understand that I AM LOVED with this supernatural, magical kind of love and I GET to extend that kind of love to others.
It’s a paradox, for sure.
Think of it like this. There is this Life Force that I call God that seeks to flow through me to express itself through me. This is God behind me – this force that wants to flow freely like a gushing river.
Then the Angel showed me Water-of-Life River, crystal bright. It flowed from the Throne of God and the Lamb, right down the middle of the street. The Tree of Life was planted on each side of the River, producing twelve kinds of fruit, a ripe fruit each month. The leaves of the Tree are for healing the nations. Never again will anything be cursed. Revelation 22:1-5
I think of it like a dam where there’s this huge body of water being held and that water is God. The dam is solid, but there are tiny dots all over it, and I’m one of those dots. Now, when I come to the realization that God is real, and I am a part of God that has been designed to abide in His Kingdom, essentially opening my heart to God/Jesus/Spirit, that little dot pops open and water starts gushing through.
Like, God starts flowing through “me” down into the valley that is parched. The land is bone dry, people are weary from thirst, vegetation is bearing little fruit…and it all needs this Life-Water and I am the vessel! I am that little hole that the Living Water can flow through to nourish them. To quench their thirsty souls. To water the land so it can bear fruit. To provide the kind of LIFE you get excited about!
Holy Jamoly! I get to be THAT kind of LIFE for people?
But so often, those little dots in the dam never open, or they may open and all sorts of “things” block the flow. Obstacles impede the full force of the Life-Water to flow through. Like what?
Take your pick: ego, shadow, fear, negative emotions, self-centeredness, corruption, immorality, greed, fleshly lusts, hatred, pride, unbelief, unhealed wounds, and a host of other things.
It is my aim to help people remember who they really are, because when you can see with eyes of faith, God can quench those dry and crusty parts of you, dear one. I know the feeling of existential angst. Of confusion. Of weariness beyond weariness in the guts of my essence, and I also know the feeling of freedom, love, and peace in God.
So, practically, what does mean for you?
Sure, I may be feeling all lovey-dovey, but how does this message help you? Well, I imagine if you’re like most, you’re craving love. Sure, motherly and fatherly love, brotherly love, soul-mate kind of love, friendship love. I get that.
We’re all craving love, but it’s deeper than you may realize. The kind of love you’re after…. that unconditional, ocean depth, reckless, wild LOVE… the kind that will satiate your ravishing appetite… can only come from WITHIN. The other love is fantastic…Go for it. We need it, but don’t neglect THE GREATEST KIND OF LOVE. The mind-blowing, river gushing, wave crashing, exuberant, OMG kind of love that wants to BE YOUR FLOW!
Yet, my emptiness led me to yearn after the Living Water. To surf the waves within….so God could begin restoring me. Filling me. Refreshing me. Rising so I can ride His waves of Life! Practically, this means taking time to get quiet with yourself and God. Silence. No phone. No Facebook. No Netflix. I know. It can be challenging. Meditate. Pray. Sit and do nothing but connect with God, Jesus, Spirit, Angels. Listen.
Within! Go within as often as you can.
Listen, most people are not the “I” that they’re talking about. That “I” is their ego; it’s their false self, thoughts, or their sin nature, or whatever you want to call it. It’s all those things that obscure their view or recognition that they are already connected to God. It’s the “I” that’s sleeping, or not “awakened”.
So, essentially this life journey, we come as this spirit + little baby all innocent and pure. Then we encounter pain, struggle, etc. and form this personality or this ego, piling layer upon layer over our core amazing god-centered Life-Force and we lose track of our real selves. Or we navigate down some dark trails. Or we set off to prove we can do it ourselves…
But sweetie, remembering and waking up may not as challenging as you may think. To do whatever it takes for you to peel back those layers to heal those old wounds (or have God heal them), to recognize the illusions, to deal with the negative emotions and thoughts and old patterns and old coping skills and defense mechanisms, etc.
Granted, it’s a process, and it may take time and we never fully “arrive”, but if God is real, and is as powerful as He’s made Himself out to be, some pretty magical stuff ought to be happening all over the world individually and collectively.
Let God flow!
God is a fountain of living water that wants to flow through humanity. No more trying to do it on our own because this power that is behind us can do it so much better!
At the very essence of our souls, we are peace and love. We are connected to the Divine peace and love. May we really get revelation of this and live our lives with this reality. Resisting the temptation to live the way the world lives and it’s self-centered, egotistical, power hungry ways. May we simplify, may we humbly look at the life of Jesus and follow his teachings. Or Buddha and follow his teachings. Or the Shaman and follow his/her teachings. There are various paths to God. I firmly believe this.
Find your way. Go within. Don’t look outward. You won’t find God out there. You will find God/Love inside. I pray for you as you read this, that your eyes be opened to the reality of the kingdom of God within you. To the reality of divine love and peace and compassion within you. For the willingness to serve God and others, allowing Spirit to lead you and guide you moment by moment,day by day.
I pray as you seek God, you also commit to showing up in the world as LOVE. You want love?
Flow as Love to all you come in contact with. Dare to love even those who are acting the fool. Projecting their crap onto you. Acting out as immature or hurting or angry a-holes.
It’s those people that need Love all the more! They’re the ones hurting the most! Can you see that? Take the high road?
May LOVE crash into you with its wild force!
Peace be unto you, dear precious soul of God.
People need Love. May we be that Love, as Love will never fail.
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
Love never dies.
1 Corinthians 13:3-7
The dark period of my life was necessary. The pain, suffering, confusion, and wandering all served a larger purpose – the death of me. The death of my ego. The death of fleshly driven hopes and dreams.
“Listen carefully: Unless a grain of wheat is buried in the ground, dead to the world, it is never any more than a grain of wheat. But if it is buried, it sprouts and reproduces itself many times over. In the same way, anyone who holds on to life just as it is destroys that life. But if you let it go, reckless in your love, you’ll have it forever, real and eternal. John 12:25 MSG
Today, I’m grateful. So grateful that I’m God-created and God-sustained!
This past winter, my soul was quiet. Not the kind of quiet that feels peaceful, but a kind of quiet desperation that had my attention. I couldn’t shake it. My mood was somber.
Life was great. My personal life and career doing wonderful. Kids were getting along just fine.
But I’d been wandering spiritually for a while. I felt alone in the desert. A decade in the church, then almost a decade trying out various paths in an attempt to find “me”. My time in church didn’t tear down my big ball of ego that had been growing since babyhood. I learned a lot about God and met some nice folks, but inside I was screaming for something more.
I value my time wandering in the New Thought, metaphysical, Buddhism, law of attraction, self-help camps. I really do. Dug through a whole lot of layers and found myself and you know what? I actually liked me a whole lot!
Still, there were times I would think, “Universe just feels cold. Like, if “Source” is God, it’s just so impersonal. I don’t want to be my own god.”
Serving a more personal God was what my soul longed for!
I began praying, “God, show me how to bridge the New Age thought and Christianity together. Both have valuable guidelines for living a good life and growing closer to God.”
After all, Jesus’s core beliefs are amazing. It’s just that human agenda and dogma have blurred them. And I didn’t want to stay distant from God, Jesus, or Spirit!
So began my journey of re-discovering ME in light of God’s Word and Jesus’s teachings. I can say the journey has been super liberating and joyful!
My wandering through the desert led me back to Jesus, who I feel is our best teacher. Why? Because He came to show us how we could enter into Love. A new kingdom. Jesus was Love. He taught Love. He was from Love, completely conscious, enlightened.
So spacious is He, so roomy, that everything of God finds its proper place in him without crowding. Not only that, but all the broken and dislocated pieces of the universe—people and things, animals and atoms—get properly fixed and fit together in vibrant harmonies, all because of his death, his blood that poured down from the cross. Colossians 1:20 MSG
You’ve probably heard this: “We’re here on this planet as spirits having a human experience.”
And you nod in agreement, but if we really got this deep down, we’d be living differently. The world would look radically different, friends. Jesus got this. He was ENLIGHTENED, embodying Light, tuned in to Love energy. He was our model. He wanted us to aim to be like Him.
Jesus showed up with a message to the Jews and Gentiles – “You no longer have to live separated from God/Love! There is a new way! A new kingdom of Light! I’m here to open the eyes of those who cannot see! The veil has been torn! Go within, people. The kingdom is within you!”
But you think, Ok, yeah, sounds nice, but it’s not really working for me. I’ve believed in God my whole life. Even did the whole church thing for a while. I don’t feel God. In fact, I feel lousy most of the time and my very soul is tired.
I understand. I’ve been there, navigating this life trying to find my spiritual path. Trying to feel connected to God. Trying to figure myself out. Did the church thing, too. Tried various spiritual paths, and they’ve all led me back to the ways of Jesus.
See, this ego or shadow or sin that we’ve created along the way; this is what separates us from God. From Love and Light. This is what creates that feeling of separation!
“THE GREAT ILLUSION THAT WE MUST ALL OVERCOME IS THE ILLUSION OF SEPARATENESS.” RICHARD ROHR
It’s the human condition. And you know what we did in order to try to get re-connected to God?
We looked to “outer things”. We looked for it in our parents, lovers, friends, money, etc.
This human condition has ego (shadow, fear, sin) at the root. In the Bible this is called sin. In psychology it’s called ego or shadow. New agers may call it the lower self. Regardless, this is what has separated us from God. When we cling to ego, we’re not feeling connected to God.
Today is a new day. A new time. A new time for healing. Restoration. And it’s not just Christians who are bearing light in the Kingdom. It’s those in the New Age movement, Shamans, Buddhists, Native Americans, Metaphysical, Old Souls, Hippies, etc. All accessing the light and power within. Those that are looking to the power of ONE.
Was Jesus just a prophet? Or the Son of God? I’m not here to debate or waste my energy philosophizing. We can look at the ways of Jesus and instead of creating factions in humankind, we can unify it based on the central tenets of faith. Things like the God-kind of love, compassion, kindness, patience, gentleness…you get the idea.
As a spirit and human being, I am growing and developing personally and spiritually. Yes, I’m here to awaken and be enlightened, but I’m also here to bring God’s Kingdom of Light and Love to others. Maybe I’ve been the prodigal daughter, but now I am home with Jesus. Home with divine Love.
“They will know you by your love.” John 13:35
Wandering in my desert made me buck up and do some hard work toward healing. Yes, I relied on God. I prayed. Meditated. Studied. Burned incense. Got Reiki, prayer, slept with gems and crystals, etc. I reached out for help, and ALL of it helped me change my fear-based defenses and coping skills – in particular codependency, or trying to find my worth in others or worldly things instead of God. All of that was keeping me from an intimate relationship with God, and fulfilling my highest creative functioning as spirit.
I was never broken. I’d simply forgotten who I was and didn’t realize I was already connected to the One I was yearning for.
I don’t propose to have all the answers. I think everyone is on their own unique journey and I bless them all. Whether you follow angels, Buddha, tree spirits, Gaia, Krishna, the Pope, Dalai Lama, and so on. As a follower of Jesus, a spirit on this earthly journey, I commit to showing up as light and love to all. I welcome everyone. I don’t attend church regularly. When I feel led, I’ll visit various gatherings of all different faiths greeting all with a heartfelt “Namaste!”
I am an expression of God. I have been restored to a deep connection with Him (and Her. Spirit is the perfect balance of masculine and feminine energy) My emotions have been restored. My mind has been transformed. I live and move and have my being IN Him.
I vow to help others awaken and re-discover their authentic identity in God, healed and whole. Never a judgment about what you believe. I let compassion lead my way. After all, we’re in this together, ya’ll and I’m rooting for you.
“All great spirituality is about what we do with our pain.” Richard Rohr