Powerful Prayers For Adult Children

Powerful Prayers For Adult Children

Powerful Prayers For Adult Children

 

Whether your children are 18, 30, or older, consistent prayers offered on their behalf not only helps them, but helps you to have a more peaceful and faith filled heart.  I know for me, if I’m not looking toward a loving God concerning my adult children and their lives, I can get into fear and worry. 

Here are some scriptures and affirmations to pray/affirm for your adult children. I use affirmative prayers because Jesus said to pray, believe, and then we’ll receive. I’ve also paraphrased them in a way that I felt led. So, I affirm that my prayers are done (and they are in the spiritual realm), so I affirm until they manifest and then keep affirming and offering gratitude.

Get into that secret place and allow these words to penetrate the heart of God, as there is power in our words!  I look at it this way: Hold an object in front of a mirror and you see that object as it is.  But if you turn that object just a little, you see it differently. Praying for my children, in my eyes, helps them make shifts that grant them a closer relationship with God, themselves, and others, and therefore, a better life.

Prayers for adult children:

  1. Ephesians 1:17-19

God, thank you that my children are receiving your spirit of wisdom and revelation, getting to know you better and better each day. Getting to know you more personally! Experiencing your presence! Thank you that their hearts are being opened and they’re clearly hearing what you’ve created and called them to do in this life. That they’re becoming more aware of the immensity of your glorious way of life, your awesome power, and your endless, boundless strength!

  1. Colossians 1:9-12 (Coupled with Ephesian 5 fruits of the spirit)

God, fill my children with an understanding of you and your will. Thank you that they walk in a manner that pleases you and bear fruit that blesses themselves and others in all areas of their lives –Fruits of the Spirit like peace, kindness, humility, patience, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Thank you that their coming to a deeper understanding of who and what you are. God, strengthen them with faith filled power, endurance, patience, and joy. Thank you!

  1. Micah 6:8

Thank you, God, that my children are learning more and more how to live as you desire them to. That they’re going within and listening to your guidance. That they’re compassionate, loyal, kind, and humble.

  1. Proverbs 2:1-11

My children receive wisdom and understanding from God as they make decisions in life, such as career, service, dating, marriage, friendships, finances, and parenting.

  1. James 4:1-8

My children guard their hearts from the temptations and lusts of this carnal world.  Things like greed, addiction, lust, power trips, hurting others, lying, etc. They allow God’s will to work in them, resisting the ways of this carnal, egotistical world. If they fall or miss the mark, they humble themselves before God, and get right back up with a heart after the ways of their creator.

I’ll add to this list periodically. Commit to praying faithfully for your children, as prayer and affirmations are great ways to continually uphold and support them. Believe God’s best for them, no matter what’s going on in the physical realm.  See the spiritual realm, believing God is always at work on their behalf. We must believe for them, always.

If you’d like to add a scriptural prayer or affirmation, please do so in the comments below.  

 

Prayers & Affirmations for an Addict or Alcoholic

Prayers & Affirmations for an Addict or Alcoholic

Prayers & Affirmations for an Addict or Alcoholic

It’s challenging when a loved one is struggling with the disease of addiction. You find out in a quick minute that essentially you’re powerless to change or fix them. You can, however, learn how to best support your loved one and take care of yourself too. I find prayer helps. I find having faith in God to act helps, because my “talks” don’t seem to get through. (I’m sure many can relate)

Take time to sit quietly and pray for your loved ones. Affirm them. Visualize them free from the grip of addiction. See God/Jesus/Angels surrounding him or her. Cover them in prayer regularly. 

Here are some prayers and affirmations I’ve written you can use as a guide, but certainly pray as you are led. There’s no right or wrong when it comes to prayer. Say what you feel and what you want.

Please pray with a sincere, earnest heart.

  • God, please open _____ eyes to the reality of this situation and his/her dependence on alcohol/drugs. Let him/her begin to see and acknowledge that he/she is not in control of his/her usage. That he/she would benefit greatly from quitting drinking/drugging.
  • God, please strengthen _____ and give him/her the courage to reach out for help. Enable him to take his/her first step toward recovery. Give him/her persistence to persevere to be free from alcoholism/drug addiction.
  • I pray that you would begin to heal ______ brokenness and emptiness. Help him/her to move past the guilt, shame, and anger the he/she may have from years of addiction. Give them the courage to reach out for professional help. Let him/her see how loved and valuable they are!
  • I pray for ______ freedom, deliverance, and restoration.
  • I come before You, God and repent of all my sins and my ancestors sins that may have resulted in a curse. I repent of all disobedience, rebellion, lying, perversion, adultery, idolatry, fornication, murder, witchcraft, and so on. May Your forgiveness abound!
  • In the authority in the Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, I command all demonic spirits of depression, alcoholism, addictions of any kind, anxiety, fear, rage, torment, guilt, rejection, sickness, confusion, apathy, laziness, to release _____________ in Jesus Name! All darkness must flee!
  • I break all written and spoken curses over my life and my family’s life in Jesus name! I break every chain, shackle, cord, habit, craving, soul-ties, and debt that has tried to steal from our lives.
  • _____ is free from the curse.
  • ______ is free from alcoholism.
  • _____is blessed abundantly.
  • ______ receives the spirit of discernment. He/she has your vision, God, and follows your ways.
  • God, protect and be with _____. Send your angels to accompany, defend, and protect him/her. Place a hedge of protection around him/her. Remove any enabler or bad influence from his/her life. Surround him/her with godly, good souls who will encourage him. Lead him/her to those who can offer valuable support, encouragement, and accountability.
  • Increase his/her faith in You. Give him/her passion and purpose. Show him/her your plan for his life and give him/her the desire to follow YOUR ways.
  • Help him/her remember who he/she is in You. Let him/her experience Your peace and unconditional love.
  • Thank you, God, for hearing and answering my prayers.

POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS FOR ALCOHOLICS OR ADDICTS

____ is free from addiction.

____ looks inward to find peace and joy.

____ takes full responsibility for his/her life.

____ resists the temptation to drink/use drugs.

____ has positive social supports surrounding him/her.

____ loves him/herself.

____ takes good care of him/herself mentally and physically.

____ is living a happy and healthy life.

No person, place, or thing has power over ____.

____ is doing the best he/she can right now. He/she is willing to grow and evolve.

____ supports him/herself in loving and supportive ways.

 

Self Vs.God: Who Do You Serve?

Self Vs.God: Who Do You Serve?

Self Vs.God: Who Do You Serve?

I love “self-serve” options. Self-serve gas stations, ice cream parlors, buffets, and even checking out at the grocery store.  I’ll admit that for the most part, I like to be in control.

Which brings me to the topic of self vs. god. Who do I serve more? Me? Or the omnipresent spirit of Love?

Here I am on this planet, two “kingdoms” vying for my attention, my loyalty, my time, and my energy.

  1. The Kingdom of Self
  2. The Kingdom of God

I spent my first two decades living in the Kingdom of Self.  I was not raised to know the difference between the two, and so by default, I became pretty good at letting my “self” (carnal nature) lead the way.

Then, I found the concept of God in college, when I was living in inner turmoil.  Found a good church and spent a decade learning about God, God’s ways, seeking to please God, and learning the Scriptures. I was all in at the consciousness level I was at.

Then, my seeming wonderful world crashed when I decided to end a marriage and hop into a toxic relationship. All emotional hell broke loose, which I’ll spare the details here.

And then I reverted back even deeper into “The Kingdom of Self”, mainly because I was so eager to find out who my true self or identity was. Who was I outside of what others or society wanted me to be?

And as I journeyed to find my “authentic self”, somehow I forgot about “God”. In fact, I wasn’t even sure I believed in a god anymore. Not in the Christian kind of God anyway.  I became absorbed in my “self” and purposed to create an amazing life without a higher power…but with positive affirmations and book knowledge.

And I have grown leaps and bounds. Through the last decade, I’ve learned incredible lessons about myself, people, relationships, God, religions in general, consciousness, life on Earth, science, finances, and so on.  Lessons I might not have learned had I not gone through some tough times. And for this, I’m grateful.

But there was something in me that was putting off “God”.  Putting off the Scriptures. Putting off faith in something greater than myself.

Those wandering in the desert

I’ve seen this in the new age camp plenty.  Those that leave the church for one reason or another and wander off on their own quest for salvation and peace.  Now, this is great if this is for you, but there are plenty out there who are wandering in the desert with a clear idea of their “selves”, but lacking faith in much else. And, they’re kind of miserable, and feeling empty, trying to bear fruit while not realizing they have very few or no roots.

I also see many of the youth who have no idea what they believe in.  They crave freedom, peace, and joy, but aren’t sure what all ingredients go into getting that. They’re not really into organized religion, and I can say I understand.  In this post-modern era, the message of the gospel has lost much of its appeal to the youth. But still, many are lost.

The Kingdom of God

Jesus talks about the Kingdom of God. He tells us that we can live in this kingdom NOW. That it’s within us.  That this kingdom is about God; not our selfish desires.

Because in all honesty, left to my own, I’m pretty selfish.  Sure, I have a huge heart, but I don’t always want to share it.  In fact, I’ve got some bricks up around it at times. I’m very giving, but I’m not always paying attention to how I can best serve humanity.

This is why I’ve taken a new stand for putting God first. Putting God’s Kingdom first.  Putting a relationship with God first. This means getting up in the morning and rather than getting right to work…I take time to pray. To meditate. To study holy literature. To ask, “God, what do you want to do through me today?”  

And, to be more mindful of God’s presence in me throughout the day.  Paying attention. Listening. Saying “yes” more to love. To service. Saying “no” more to fleshly desires, worldly pursuits, lusts of the flesh.

Surrender the “Self Life”

Jesus says, “Put on the new self”, which is the likeness of Jesus. This means that I can get up each day and purposefully decide to deny my “old self” and take on the “new self” in Jesus.  To identify with Christ Consciousness. To manifest Christ Consciousness throughout my day.

The Self Lies

The selfish nature promises all sorts of things, but they turn out to be lies.  Just look around… you’ll see people pursuing money in the hopes that they’ll find happiness in it. All the while, they’re not really happy, burned out, and lost.

There are those drowning in emotional pain, self-sabotaging, numbing out with alcohol and drugs. That’s the “old self” lying and promising a “feel good” through chemicals.

There’s those addicted to all sorts of things: the internet, social media, games, work, gambling, shopping, food, porn, etc.  All “The Kingdom of Self” and leads to darkness, misery, brokenness, etc.

“God Centered Living”

I’m finding more and more that God centered living is the only kind of living I want to do.  “Love Centered Living”. By God, I mean the all-knowing, all-powerful, creative life force that created everything and everyone.  The Almighty, Cosmic Intelligence, Universal Spirit, Life Force!

It’s in the inner life.  The inner thoughts and emotions that come from God’s Spirit. From Christ Consciousness.

As human beings, we have this “mind” that thinks.  Renew that mind according to God’s Word. To holy literature. According to Love. Light.  Take time daily to close your eyes and get quiet. Think about God and God’s Kingdom within you.

Begin to entertain the idea of a new way of life on this planet. The kind of life where you can trust more than just yourself.

I’m on the verge of a new path in several areas of my life right now. I’m trusting that God will show me as I listen with an innocent heart. The doors will be opened and connections will be made that will bring forth more light and love on this planet. I don’t have all the answers and I don’t need to.

But this one thing I am doing is going within more often. Acknowledging a power greater than myself. Deciding to rely and trust on God’s power and living in this Kingdom. And I know as a result, Christ consciousness will expand in me, and my spiritual branches will bear much more fruits of the Spirit, but not just for me.

For humanity.

I ran into a clerk yesterday who called me things like sweetheart, babe, love, sweetie. You could tell there was something amazing about this woman. Joy was radiating from her, and kindness. Before I left I told her that she was the most positive person I’d seen in a while. She looked at me and said, “Thank you. It’s Jesus in me.”

Ah. I’m paying attention. May we all allow more Jesus to shine through us consistently.

“Seek first God’s Kingdom and righteousness.”  (Right standing with God).

How Can We Show Up For The Hurting?

How Can We Show Up For The Hurting?

How Can We Show Up For The Hurting?

 

In the light of all the natural disasters and violence seen in recent months, I’m sure there’s a lot of heavy hearts all around the world. The devastation of thousands upon thousands of people feeling deep loss, fear, trauma, and perhaps even hopelessness. It’s something that we can’t turn away from. 

We wonder how we can be there for them. What can we do? How can we show up? Granted, there are many things that can be done, and this will vary for each person, depending on various factors. Some will go to the areas that have been devastated, and lend a hand. Some will donate money. Some will open their homes. Some will spend time in prayer. And so on.

Rallying together

It warms my heart to see how people show up in times of trials. In times of devastation. Most people rally together to help those in need. Most people will forget about their own suffering and challenges, which pale in comparison to others. 

There may always be natural disasters and violence on this planet. There may always be challenges and struggle – individually and collectively. I used to struggle a lot with feeling like I didn’t do enough out there for people. I would look at people like Mother Teresa, missionaries, leaders, and so on, and compare myself. I never really felt like I was doing “enough”. Or good enough.

Except for the days I was in the Church. All good and well, except I OVER did it. I was one of those souls feeling as I had to do everything, show up for everything, and fix everyone. Um, being off balance catches up to you. I totally got burned out.

Sometimes that struggle still pops up in my life. I work from home, so I’m not always out there mingling with the people. I mingle with the people online. That’s my job, and that’s my passion. I express myself best through writing. That’s where Spirit seems to move through me in ways that reach people.

At the same time, God has shown me (and people have confirmed) that Presence matters. What I mean by presence is the way you show up for people when you are with them. This is how we can all help heal this planet, and by that, I mean the people living on it.

Presence

How can we show up for those in our immediate sphere of influence in light, love, compassion, and patience? Can we show up with a strong presence of the love of a greater power? Or do we feel we have to “do, do, do”?

Can we simply listen? Be?

I had one client who wrote in last week concerned about her friend who was grieving the loss of her mother. This woman seemed to think that because her friend was 40, she shouldn’t be grieving her mother. She wanted her friend to get over it and get back to her normal happy self. I was taken back, because the reality is that the loss of a mother at any age can be heartbreaking. Grief is very normal!

This woman clearly could not show up and be present for her friend and be empathetic. By empathetic, I mean just showing up to listen and be with that person, not rushing them to be happy again. Not trying to fix them. Just letting them be in their grief, and loving them right there where they are. I spent some time trying to help this woman understand what it means to be empathetic, and certainly gave her a link to Brene Brown’s insightful video about the topic.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Evwgu369Jw

Bridging the gap between Christianity and Spirituality

I’ve not written very much this year under my own name. I spent a great deal of time ghostwriting for others. It’s been a season of being quiet. Navigating my inner landscape, allowing God to help me begin bridging the gap between Christianity and Spirituality. Allowing me to become more familiar with the leading of Spirit. Allowing me to see the areas in my life that still need some healing.

Patience, compassion, kindness, sacred activism

Those are the things that are on my mind lately. There’s plenty of opportunity to practice such each day. My ego doesn’t always want to, but my soul will always lead me to opportunities to do so.

A lady stopped me in the store yesterday. She’s a former principal and had been laid up at home for the last month due to cancer treatment. Her husband called her four times since she was out, and she shared with me how he was driving her crazy. She said, “Good man, but come on…. Let me have some time!” She talked and talked, and I smiled and listened. She craved that connection, at that moment. I was fully present for her, and I delighted in her being and her spirit. At one point, she said, “Oh you’re probably not even interested in this.” I smiled, and let her know I was very interested and happy to meet her. I let her know that she mattered.

I hope that we can all show up for those who we come in contact with in a way that adds value to their lives. It could just be a smile. It could just be a listening ear. It could be providing someone with something that they need. Offering hope. Taking the time to listen, even if you are in a hurry or crave silence yourself. 

It’s easy to get caught up in the rat race. It’s easy to forget about what really matters in life. It’s easy to let selfishness have its way.

Jesus said, “The Kingdom of God is within you.” When we go inside, when we take the time to really go within and spend time in the “Kingdom”, we’ll be able to better show up in the world ready to spread light, love, compassion, kindness, and patience.

It’s wonderful to find your “self”, but the true essence of self, or spirit, is LOVE. It’s God, however you define God.

I’m obviously writing again. Sharing what I’m led to share. For me, for you, for God’s greater purpose.

Let the Divine Presence lead you today, as you go about your day.

You matter. We matter.

Rest in the beauty of who you are as part of Divinity.

I Found Mind-blowing, River Gushing, Wave Crashing, OMG Kind of Love

I Found Mind-blowing, River Gushing, Wave Crashing, OMG Kind of Love

I Found Mind-blowing, River Gushing, Wave Crashing, OMG Kind of Love

 

There is an unseen Power in this universe that is so much greater then we can think or imagine. Do you ever just sit and wonder how we’re here? These little tiny human beings on this enormous planet in this expansive universe? It really does blow my mind sometimes. But this Power, which I call God, is alive and so very real. This relationship with Life – with the Cosmos – is overlooked by so many.This Mighty God seeks to live through us expressing Himself (and Herself. God is a spirit, masculine and feminine) through us. We are like waves upon waves and God is like the ocean and we are swimming in this pool of Great Grace! We’re human, but we are also Divine!

We are all divinely connected

We are spiritual in nature. We have a fleshly body, but we are essentially spirits. Each of us is unique, but we are all connected to each other and God. We are all little beams of light connected with the SUN/SON. This expansive energy, this explosive energy is real! (Though many are completely unaware)   But it’s real, ya’ll. Whether you want to call it God or Universe or Life Source or Energy – whatever that higher power is to you – it’s real. I resonate with several different paths and what works for me may not work for you and I’m totally fine with that. You find what works for you.  Use the language that works for you and don’t judge others for their path.

The ways of Jesus

I find the teachings of Jesus Christ to be simple. He did not come to make things challenging to understand. Sure, he uses metaphors and parables, but it doesn’t take a genius to recognize that at the very root of all of his teachings is love and compassion for self, others, and God. All it takes is a willingness to humbly go within and seek that which is already seeking you. That which is already a part of you. My spiritual journey has taken me on some winding roads and I’ve come to forks in the road and have veered off into different practices, religions, or philosophies. I was designed to experience it all! All of it has brought me to a place in life where

I’m understanding the bigger picture better. The reality that the more I know, the less I understand, and the less I understand in and of myself, the more I understand in and of Spirit. The more I understand that I AM LOVED with this supernatural, magical kind of love and I GET to extend that kind of love to others.

It’s a paradox, for sure.

Think of it like this. There is this Life Force that I call God that seeks to flow through me to express itself through me. This is God behind me – this force that wants to flow freely like a gushing river.

Then the Angel showed me Water-of-Life River, crystal bright. It flowed from the Throne of God and the Lamb, right down the middle of the street. The Tree of Life was planted on each side of the River, producing twelve kinds of fruit, a ripe fruit each month. The leaves of the Tree are for healing the nations. Never again will anything be cursed. Revelation 22:1-5

I think of it like a dam where there’s this huge body of water being held and that water is God. The dam is solid, but there are tiny dots all over it, and I’m one of those dots. Now, when I come to the realization that God is real, and I am a part of God that has been designed to abide in His Kingdom, essentially opening my heart to God/Jesus/Spirit, that little dot pops open and water starts gushing through.

Like, God starts flowing through “me” down into the valley that is parched. The land is bone dry, people are weary from thirst, vegetation is bearing little fruit…and it all needs this Life-Water and I am the vessel! I am that little hole that the Living Water can flow through to nourish them. To quench their thirsty souls. To water the land so it can bear fruit. To provide the kind of LIFE you get excited about!  

Holy Jamoly! I get to be THAT kind of LIFE for people?

But so often, those little dots in the dam never open, or they may open and all sorts of “things” block the flow. Obstacles impede the full force of the Life-Water to flow through. Like what? Take your pick: ego, shadow, fear, negative emotions, self-centeredness, corruption, immorality, greed, fleshly lusts, hatred, pride, unbelief, unhealed wounds, and a host of other things.  

It is my aim to help people remember who they really are, because when you can see with eyes of faith, God can quench those dry and crusty parts of you, dear one. I know the feeling of existential angst. Of confusion. Of weariness beyond weariness in the guts of my essence, and I also know the feeling of freedom, love, and peace in God.

So, practically, what does mean for you?

Sure, I may be feeling all lovey-dovey, but how does this message help you? Well, I imagine if you’re like most, you’re craving love. Sure, motherly and fatherly love, brotherly love, soul-mate kind of love, friendship love. I get that. We’re all craving love, but it’s deeper than you may realize. The kind of love you’re after…. that unconditional, ocean depth, reckless, wild LOVE… the kind that will satiate your ravishing appetite… can only come from WITHIN. The other love is fantastic…Go for it. We need it, but don’t neglect THE GREATEST KIND OF LOVE. The mind-blowing, river gushing, wave crashing, exuberant, OMG kind of love that wants to BE YOUR FLOW!

Go within

Yet, my emptiness led me to yearn after the Living Water. To surf the waves within….so God could begin restoring me. Filling me. Refreshing me. Rising so I can ride His waves of Life! Practically, this means taking time to get quiet with yourself and God. Silence. No phone. No Facebook. No Netflix. I know. It can be challenging. Meditate. Pray. Sit and do nothing but connect with God, Jesus, Spirit, Angels. Listen.  Within! Go within as often as you can.

Listen, most people are not the “I” that they’re talking about. That “I” is their ego; it’s their false self, thoughts, or their sin nature, or whatever you want to call it. It’s all those things that obscure their view or recognition that they are already connected to God. It’s the “I” that’s sleeping, or not “awakened”.  So, essentially this life journey, we come as this spirit + little baby all innocent and pure. Then we encounter pain, struggle, etc. and form this personality or this ego, piling layer upon layer over our core amazing god-centered Life-Force and we lose track of our real selves. Or we navigate down some dark trails. Or we set off to prove we can do it ourselves…

But sweetie, remembering and waking up may not as challenging as you may think. To do whatever it takes for you to peel back those layers to heal those old wounds (or have God heal them), to recognize the illusions, to deal with the negative emotions and thoughts and old patterns and old coping skills and defense mechanisms, etc. Granted, it’s a process, and it may take time and we never fully “arrive”, but if God is real, and is as powerful as He’s made Himself out to be, some pretty magical stuff ought to be happening all over the world individually and collectively. 

Let God flow!

God is a fountain of living water that wants to flow through humanity. No more trying to do it on our own because this power that is behind us can do it so much better! At the very essence of our souls, we are peace and love. We are connected to the Divine peace and love. May we really get revelation of this and live our lives with this reality. Resisting the temptation to live the way the world lives and it’s self-centered, egotistical, power hungry ways.

May we simplify, may we humbly look at the life of Jesus and follow his teachings. Or Buddha and follow his teachings. Or the Shaman and follow his/her teachings. There are various paths to God. I firmly believe this. Find your way. Go within. Don’t look outward. You won’t find God out there. You will find God/Love inside. I pray for you as you read this, that your eyes be opened to the reality of the kingdom of God within you. To the reality of divine love and peace and compassion within you. For the willingness to serve God and others, allowing Spirit to lead you and guide you moment by moment,day by day.

I pray as you seek God, you also commit to showing up in the world as LOVE. You want love?

Be Love.

Flow as Love to all you come in contact with. Dare to love even those who are acting the fool. Projecting their crap onto you. Acting out as immature or hurting or angry a-holes. It’s those people that need Love all the more! They’re the ones hurting the most! Can you see that? Take the high road?

May LOVE crash into you with its wild force!

Peace be unto you, dear precious soul of God. People need Love. May we be that Love, as Love will never fail.

Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have. Love doesn’t strut, Doesn’t have a swelled head, Doesn’t force itself on others, Isn’t always “me first,” Doesn’t fly off the handle, Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others, Doesn’t revel when others grovel, Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, Puts up with anything, Trusts God always, Always looks for the best, Never looks back, But keeps going to the end. Love never dies. 1 Corinthians 13:3-7  

Soul Recovery: My Journey Back to Faith

Soul Recovery: My Journey Back to Faith

Soul Recovery: My Journey Back to Faith

 

The dark period of my life was necessary. The pain, suffering, confusion, and wandering all served a larger purpose – the death of me. The death of my ego. The death of fleshly driven hopes and dreams.

“Listen carefully: Unless a grain of wheat is buried in the ground, dead to the world, it is never any more than a grain of wheat. But if it is buried, it sprouts and reproduces itself many times over. In the same way, anyone who holds on to life just as it is destroys that life. But if you let it go, reckless in your love, you’ll have it forever, real and eternal. John 12:25 MSG

Today, I’m grateful. So grateful that I’m God-created and God-sustained! This past winter, my soul was quiet. Not the kind of quiet that feels peaceful, but a kind of quiet desperation that had my attention. I couldn’t shake it. My mood was somber. Life was great. My personal life and career doing wonderful. Kids were getting along just fine.

But I’d been wandering spiritually for a while. I felt alone in the desert. A decade in the church, then almost a decade trying out various paths in an attempt to find “me”. My time in church didn’t tear down my big ball of ego that had been growing since babyhood. I learned a lot about God and met some nice folks, but inside I was screaming for something more. I value my time wandering in the New Thought, metaphysical, Buddhism, law of attraction, self-help camps. I really do. Dug through a whole lot of layers and found myself and you know what? I actually liked me a whole lot!

Still, there were times I would think, “Universe just feels cold. Like, if “Source” is God, it’s just so impersonal. I don’t want to be my own god.” Serving a more personal God was what my soul longed for!    I began praying, “God, show me how to bridge the New Age thought and Christianity together.

Both have valuable guidelines for living a good life and growing closer to God.” After all, Jesus’s core beliefs are amazing. It’s just that human agenda and dogma have blurred them. And I didn’t want to stay distant from God, Jesus, or Spirit! So began my journey of re-discovering ME in light of God’s Word and Jesus’s teachings.

I can say the journey has been super liberating and joyful!   My wandering through the desert led me back to Jesus, who I feel is our best teacher. Why? Because He came to show us how we could enter into Love. A new kingdom. Jesus was Love. He taught Love. He was from Love, completely conscious, enlightened.

So spacious is He, so roomy, that everything of God finds its proper place in him without crowding. Not only that, but all the broken and dislocated pieces of the universe—people and things, animals and atoms—get properly fixed and fit together in vibrant harmonies, all because of his death, his blood that poured down from the cross. Colossians 1:20 MSG

You’ve probably heard this: “We’re here on this planet as spirits having a human experience.” And you nod in agreement, but if we really got this deep down, we’d be living differently. The world would look radically different, friends. Jesus got this. He was ENLIGHTENED, embodying Light, tuned in to Love energy. He was our model. He wanted us to aim to be like Him.

Jesus showed up with a message to the Jews and Gentiles – “You no longer have to live separated from God/Love! There is a new way! A new kingdom of Light! I’m here to open the eyes of those who cannot see! The veil has been torn! Go within, people. The kingdom is within you!”

But you think, Ok, yeah, sounds nice, but it’s not really working for me. I’ve believed in God my whole life. Even did the whole church thing for a while. I don’t feel God. In fact, I feel lousy most of the time and my very soul is tired. I understand. I’ve been there, navigating this life trying to find my spiritual path. Trying to feel connected to God. Trying to figure myself out. Did the church thing, too.

Tried various spiritual paths, and they’ve all led me back to the ways of Jesus. See, this ego or shadow or sin that we’ve created along the way; this is what separates us from God. From Love and Light. This is what creates that feeling of separation!

“THE GREAT ILLUSION THAT WE MUST ALL OVERCOME IS THE ILLUSION OF SEPARATENESS.” RICHARD ROHR

It’s the human condition. And you know what we did in order to try to get re-connected to God? We looked to “outer things”. We looked for it in our parents, lovers, friends, money, etc. This human condition has ego (shadow, fear, sin) at the root. In the Bible this is called sin. In psychology it’s called ego or shadow. New agers may call it the lower self.

Regardless, this is what has separated us from God. When we cling to ego, we’re not feeling connected to God. Today is a new day. A new time. A new time for healing. Restoration. And it’s not just Christians who are bearing light in the Kingdom. It’s those in the New Age movement, Shamans, Buddhists, Native Americans, Metaphysical, Old Souls, Hippies, etc. All accessing the light and power within. Those that are looking to the power of ONE.

Was Jesus just a prophet? Or the Son of God? I’m not here to debate or waste my energy philosophizing. We can look at the ways of Jesus and instead of creating factions in humankind, we can unify it based on the central tenets of faith. Things like the God-kind of love, compassion, kindness, patience, gentleness…you get the idea.

As a spirit and human being, I am growing and developing personally and spiritually. Yes, I’m here to awaken and be enlightened, but I’m also here to bring God’s Kingdom of Light and Love to others. Maybe I’ve been the prodigal daughter, but now I am home with Jesus. Home with divine Love.

“They will know you by your love.” John 13:35

Wandering in my desert made me buck up and do some hard work toward healing. Yes, I relied on God. I prayed. Meditated. Studied. Burned incense. Got Reiki, prayer, slept with gems and crystals, etc. I reached out for help, and ALL of it helped me change my fear-based defenses and coping skills – in particular codependency, or trying to find my worth in others or worldly things instead of God. All of that was keeping me from an intimate relationship with God, and fulfilling my highest creative functioning as spirit. 

I was never broken.

I’d simply forgotten who I was and didn’t realize I was already connected to the One I was yearning for. I don’t propose to have all the answers. I think everyone is on their own unique journey and I bless them all. Whether you follow angels, Buddha, tree spirits, Gaia, Krishna, the Pope, Dalai Lama, and so on.

As a follower of Jesus, a spirit on this earthly journey, I commit to showing up as light and love to all. I welcome everyone. I don’t attend church regularly. When I feel led, I’ll visit various gatherings of all different faiths greeting all with a heartfelt “Namaste!”

I am an expression of God. I have been restored to a deep connection with Him (and Her. Spirit is the perfect balance of masculine and feminine energy)  My emotions have been restored. My mind has been transformed. I live and move and have my being IN Him. I vow to help others awaken and re-discover their authentic identity in God, healed and whole. Never a judgment about what you believe. I let compassion lead my way.

After all, we’re in this together, ya’ll and I’m rooting for you.

“All great spirituality is about what we do with our pain.” Richard Rohr