Hello, Star Shine {Poetry}

Hello, Star Shine {Poetry}

 

hello star shine

spring breaks forth,
celebrating green 
in splendor,
warmth oozes
down
her shivering,
vulnerable
heart.

grace brushes
her face,
leans in
close with
a whisper.

flower child,
you 
must
trust
the arriving
of a vision
after hibernation,
for time
heals
feels
reels
you inside
your lofty
dreams.

alright, 
she nods
with a
weary acceptance.
illumination,
an epic
light station,
delights in
her company, 
firing up her
cold, damp wick,
and ice begins
to melt.

it’s all making
sense, now.
do you see?
applaud hard
dear friends.
let’s shout 
praise upon praise,
for out of the ruins
of frigid black,
divinity is making 
her whole.

it’s worthy 
of taking note.
oh, the grandeur
of long-awaited
sunshine.

Rend {Poetry}

Rend {Poetry}

rend

her head gently drops
not wanting to be seen
somewhere in between
wanting
needing
bleeding
as she succumbs
to vile crumbs
sifting through
egg shells
scattered on her floor
just a little more
bet and believe
she’ll even the score
worthiness will
trump rejection
her river will flow
her light will glow
she will see
become free
rend her garment
in three
one for her
one for you
one for me

Lost and Found {Poetry}

Lost and Found {Poetry}

lost and found

the winds have shifted, and the stench of nausea blows from her belly.
the monsoon’s over, she thought, blowing kisses to clouds of black.
she must walk a new shore, swim in a new river,

rain-dance a little more.
she must sing to the gods of waves
crashing,
splashing,
smashing
false idols + ego.

she must flow, just effin’ go. and she will,
because she found herself in the rainbow.

You Are the Power

You Are the Power

you are the power

when you realize

that you are the power 

you refuse to give away, 

you can leave your door open 

to the whole wide world.

I Am Not My Codependency {Poetry}

I Am Not My Codependency {Poetry}

I Am Not Codependency

 

I struggle with codependency so they say

This means that I’m feeling sad inside just about every day

See, I want to please everyone around me so badly

That’s about the only thing that makes me feel happy, sadly

When they say “Oh thank you! You are so sweet and thoughtful!”

I smile. And I don’t smile that often.

Experts say I’m this way because of early childhood trauma

That doesn’t seem fair at all

Were my needs not met? Did I feel completely alone and unloved?

I must have because that’s how I feel a lot of the time now.

Inner childhood wounds come back to haunt us?

That bites.

I’m trying to have a relationship and it’s so toxic we both are going crazy.

They say opposites attract and unconsciously we attracted each other

And began an addictive dance that slowly destroyed our spirits.

It’s not all my fault. It’s not all her fault.

It’s both of us and our lack of knowledge and growth.

Codependency is a silent killer of relationships.

So is emotional manipulation.

I found out I’m petrified of being alone.

When we break up my insides are a mess.

I’m like a drug addict going through withdrawal.

We’re so confused and hurting each other and don’t even know why.

I’ve become so bitter and angry and sad.

No matter what I say or do I seem to hurt her and I don’t even know how I do it.

I used to like myself and be strong.

But life’s circumstances and emotional manipulation made me break.

And when I fight to draw a boundary line

It never goes well.

Drama, mistrust, jealousy, control, manipulation, pride, ego, selfishness

What kind of relationship is that?

One that needs to end.

And it has.

Before it’s too late, we finally made a choice.

Break the addiction. Draw the lines.

Get some much needed help and for god’s sake grow.

Fill the void with the only Love that matters

Become strong one day at a time

Join with others on a quest to find self

And begin taking good care of self

I am not my codependency. No, not anymore.

It has been a long time coming.

I am a radiant spirit growing stronger each day

I’m beginning to love myself and remember the feeling of peace

But some days I still cry

I still feel alone sometimes

I share my story so others can know

They are not their codependency either.

It’s never too late to wipe the slate clean and begin anew

I don’t know much, but one thing I do

There is hope. There is most definitely hope.

And help for codependency.

I am not my codependency.

And neither are you.

{Codependency Poetry}

 

 

perts say I’m this way because of early childhood trauma

That doesn’t seem fair at all

Were my needs not met? Did I feel completely alone and unloved?

I must have because that’s how I feel a lot of the time now.

Inner childhood wounds come back to haunt us?

That bites.

I’m trying to have a relationship and it’s so toxic we both are going crazy.

They say opposites attract and unconsciously we attracted each other

And began an addictive dance that slowly destroyed our spirits.

It’s not all my fault. It’s not all her fault.

It’s both of us and our lack of knowledge and growth.

Codependency is a silent killer of relationships.

So is emotional manipulation.

I found out I’m petrified of being alone.

When we break up my insides are a mess.

I’m like a drug addict going through withdrawal.

We’re so confused and hurting each other and don’t even know why.

I’ve become so bitter and angry and sad.

No matter what I say or do I seem to hurt her and I don’t even know how I do it.

I used to like myself and be strong.

But life’s circumstances and emotional manipulation made me break.

And when I fight to draw a boundary line

It never goes well.

Drama, mistrust, jealousy, control, manipulation, pride, ego, selfishness

What kind of relationship is that?

One that needs to end.

And it has.

Before it’s too late, we finally made a choice.

Break the addiction. Draw the lines.

Get some much needed help and for god’s sake grow.

Fill the void with the only Love that matters

Become strong one day at a time

Join with others on a quest to find self

And begin taking good care of self

I am not my codependency. No, not anymore.

It has been a long time coming.

I am a radiant spirit growing stronger each day

I’m beginning to love myself and remember the feeling of peace

But some days I still cry

I still feel alone sometimes

I share my story so others can know

They are not their codependency either.

It’s never too late to wipe the slate clean and begin anew

I don’t know much, but one thing I do

There is hope. There is most definitely hope.

And help for codependency.

I am not my codependency.

And neither are you.

{Codependency Poetry}

 

 

Fire Dancing {poetry}

Fire Dancing {poetry}

her face
shines,
her heart
sings,
now.


but her dance

was birthed
in the fire.


fear not

lovely soul,
the phoenix
always rises.